Remembering

So blog buddies here I am once again in a very sad mood, thinking about life and death and how fragile it is.

I got some news today that lightens the weight on my shoulders yet only makes it worse It wasn't suicide, It was an addictive "Game" known as the "Choking Game" please go here to read more HERE!!!!

This sweet young man whom i didnt even know that well has me shook up so much, I'm finding myself at the brink of crying almost every second of everyday, Its starting to scare me and im not sure where life is going to take me next, I'm just not sure anymore my friends, I really need people to help me get out of the house and keep my mind from dwelling on such deep dark things.

I'm so sad and flustered right now im not sure what else to say, im gonna go pray and lay down for the night.

LOVE YA
-FoUnD-AT-LaSt-

Wow what a day

Good evening my Blog Buddies I hope you had a better day then I did.
It all start at roughly 8:30am when the Directv guy came to install the tv's, Well that ended up taking 5 hours or so but it was fun to watch and he was a nice guy, a little bit old for me but he was still cute :P

Well anyways About 9-9:30 i believe i got a txt informing me that one of my friends whom has moved away for college That there brother had taken his life the night before, Little did I know how the death of a person I barley knew would really emotionally eat me up. I've been going back and forth thinking about Suicide all day, "Don't get me wrong im not thinking of doing it let me explain" I've been dealing with suicide ever sense i was young, I've been ready to take my life many times and have been emotionally messed up for many many years, I have my fair share of scars to prove it, So little did anyone know how this little text message with this tragic news would really fire up my inner demons and just bring down my whole day.

I've been lucky enough to have the few people who care about me chat me up and just keep me cheerful along with that family friend get together we left for at about 4Pm and have only recently got home from. There was fun, Food "Which i didn't eat much of because it was meat and i didn't want any meat at all" So i had a nice salad there was potato salad and grape salad as well as home made rolls.

After dinner we got a small fire starting and the guitars came out, There were singers/guitar players when we began and by the time we ended at shortly after 10pm it was down to only 3

So here I am Writing this blog/Rant about how my day went and Hoping parts of that day don't pop back in here soon while im waiting for a friend to txt me back.

Hope you had a better day then I did

LOVE YA
-FoUnD-AT-LaSt-

boring day

So here I am typing to myself while watching a video on how to prevent cancer "and its only reinforcing my beliefs on going vegetarian for pretty much all of my meals"

My day was horrible, my body and mind hurt for no reason, i feel tired yet i have a headache from not using energy today, I heard my friends are now fighting, my sister is a goofball and life without cable/satellite is way to boring.

Tomaro we get the new dish aswell as church, after that it will be some boring down time until its time to go to some family friends and have a cook out "Which i hope theres gonna be plenty of veggies and fruits, I'm done with meat, its way to unhealthy" On another note i need to mix up another batch of my soy milk, I think its my last batch before i have to buy more, anybody got money for me to get some, cause we all know i cant have reall milk or dairy.

I had some ice cream a day or so ago and it whooped me good, I didn't feel good at all for a long while, almost threw up along with cramps and other things we dont need to go into.

So im trying to make this post long so i dont have to end up doing 2 or 3 a day, I'll get my days life in one long rant with no writing skills or platform at all just a big rant.

So ya spread the word, get in contact with me, comment on my posts so i know you people are alive, and help me kill my boredom somehow, send me a cute emostyle boy to keep me company :D

LOVE YA
-FoUnD-AT-LaSt-

Room Mostly Complete

Hello loves i'm back again after slaving in my room for hours, I have some pics of what i have done and yes some are blurry but there not bad, I took them on my small little camera and i took them quik, This is by far not at all trying to be professional Photographer "TEEHEE"

So here we have the entrance to my closet with my skeletal guardian HEHE

Here is my cubby area with some posters i got a few years ago.

The dresser i have covered with Firework Launchers -cough- PYRO -cough-

The last side of my cubby with all mine and my dads motorcycle miniatures.

A wide shot of the cubby area

Umm, ya i've been collecting energy drink can's,bottles,Tube's for like 2-3 years, I still have more to get.

The corner of my room with my fan and some random stuff.

The far wall of my room with my TV,Sterieo, Signed Disturbed poster that my dad got before they took over the world.

My Tippman sniper painball gun and my Public Enemy Tatto skate board.

The wall by my bed, IDC care what people think i have a right to be proud of my race.

The rebel flag with soon to be my Flying "V" Guitar.

So my BLOG buddies I hope you enjoy my room, and if your a single sexy boy I hope you could join me here some day ;D "I know im so bad but hey what can i say"

So leave me comment, Leave me feedback, I'm gonna go chill out for a little bit and wait for people to respond.

LOVE YA
-FoUnD-AT-LaSt-

Dinner

So here I am writing you again for like the 4th time today ""I need to cut back" We had chicken for dinner and then me and my dad will be going back up to my room to continue fixing up my room, i guess i shall get pictures when im done if anyone is interested?

Sitting here watching M.A.S.H. as our daily routine happens to be just puts another dent in the coffin, Oh totaly randomly did i happen to tell you I came out to my parents a week or so ago? Guess I might have missed that, I figured people was mad at me already so why the crap not.

Well make sure to leave me some love on this message and im sure ill be back again soon enough possibly with pictures to post if it's wanted.

How we all doing

So If anyone is even looking at my blog you have noticed that over the passed few hours I've been tweaking away, I hope people like the basic things that I've done and If you know of anything you'de like to see feel free to tell me about it.

Hope you all enjoy the music and i don't care what people say about it I like this band and its very nice calm music that really puts a person's mind at ease in stressful times.

So ya please leave me comments and stuff so i feel like im actually doing this for people and not just my own self satisfaction.

PEACE!!

Good Morning Govna

So here I am sitting on the couch once again doing nothing but wasting my life away on youtube.
CLICK TO SEE WHAT I AM WATCHING

No plans for the day but to sit around and do nothing, Yes i know your thinking to yourself get out of the house and do something, But there is nothing to do in my small town, No place to go meet people no place to hangout.

Plus everyone in this area hates me anyways, My real friends are always busy and live 30-40ish miles away and cant afford to come get me all the time.

Oh well I'll continue to sit and waste away the days till my 20'th Birthday in which i dont know if it would be worth it.

I'm getting older and have nothing to show, yes i have many years ahead of me but when you think on it ive accomplished nothing in my 20 years on this earth and i think that's horrible.

Post comments please, maybe drop me a subject i could talk about.

TATA for now you fabulous people.