Wow what a day

Good evening my Blog Buddies I hope you had a better day then I did.
It all start at roughly 8:30am when the Directv guy came to install the tv's, Well that ended up taking 5 hours or so but it was fun to watch and he was a nice guy, a little bit old for me but he was still cute :P

Well anyways About 9-9:30 i believe i got a txt informing me that one of my friends whom has moved away for college That there brother had taken his life the night before, Little did I know how the death of a person I barley knew would really emotionally eat me up. I've been going back and forth thinking about Suicide all day, "Don't get me wrong im not thinking of doing it let me explain" I've been dealing with suicide ever sense i was young, I've been ready to take my life many times and have been emotionally messed up for many many years, I have my fair share of scars to prove it, So little did anyone know how this little text message with this tragic news would really fire up my inner demons and just bring down my whole day.

I've been lucky enough to have the few people who care about me chat me up and just keep me cheerful along with that family friend get together we left for at about 4Pm and have only recently got home from. There was fun, Food "Which i didn't eat much of because it was meat and i didn't want any meat at all" So i had a nice salad there was potato salad and grape salad as well as home made rolls.

After dinner we got a small fire starting and the guitars came out, There were singers/guitar players when we began and by the time we ended at shortly after 10pm it was down to only 3

So here I am Writing this blog/Rant about how my day went and Hoping parts of that day don't pop back in here soon while im waiting for a friend to txt me back.

Hope you had a better day then I did

LOVE YA
-FoUnD-AT-LaSt-